Frustration is a powerful thing. It's all I feel right now.
Certain situations have made it more so even if I understand them... the fact that I'm leaving for a long time very soon, and just that I hate to leave the one I love behind... I'm strait up frustrated.
I wish I knew how to take it better. Knowing that I leave soon is bad enough but I'm scared I'm alianating some of those who love me while it happens... lack of communication is probably the key. I just have tried with so many people yet apparently seeing my name on the caller ID is reason enough for a lot of people not to answer.
I've had a lot going on the last month or so and I wish I had someone on the phone who would listen. Apparently though all my friends are too busy with their own lives to be able to trouble themselves with mine. I can't blame them it just frustrates me to no end when I really have no outlet to get things off my chest. I really dont' need anyone who cares in truth I just need someone to listen though I'm mostly too shy about things that are going on to spill the whole truth and just go with it...
I think I'm just mainly frustrated with myself...